I yearn for a second chance.
I yearn for another try.
I yearn for your presence.
I still feel like how I felt.
But whats the point if it is going to end the same way?
You tell me somethings that I could not understand in my entire life.
You told me something that went against my upbringing.
Whole thing crumbles as I watch helpless from the side
Thinking of nothing but you.
I wish. Oh
How I wished there was another way.
Labels: Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
If it is easy for someone,
It does not mean its easy for someone.
The prick from roses still hurts until now.
Will I be able to walk the talk?
I hope so.
Things are different now.
We walk different paths.
We look each other differently.
We are not the same anymore.
Regret not, because its not your fault nor mine.
Let this story come to an end.
And let us me get through this.
I wonder how do you feel.
I always knew you were the strong one.
Labels: Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
I understand everything now.
I was stupid to let the anwser fly by.
And it has already been decided.
Bey was your choice.
I have nothing to say.
Nothing else to say.
Thanks.
Labels: Problems, Update
I need to stop drinking.
I have so many things to say to you.
Yet nothing come out except Hie and Bye
I care yet I cant fully express it.
If it is to be . so be it then.
I rather see myself to death than to see you being unhappy.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
Well finally I am back to Kampar.
The weather here is warm. But not hot.
Great place to be.
Where food are everywhere.
The quality is so-so if you picky.
Cleaned my room and sweated like a dog.
Probably even worse than a dog.
Its not clean and it is now OFFICIALLY renamed calls
Nick Siew's Villa~ =)
Gave your things back.
Too bad I forgot my charger and lolipop.
Guess I am old already.
Getting more and more irritating and forgetful.
Hope you will have fun.
Beer is my company for now.
Carlsberg sucks.
Prefer Heineken / Tiger
Prefers to be drunk.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Update
REGRET
Do you know what it is?
Have you ever felt it before?
What is the definition of regret?
My biggest regret is losing YOU.
I am still missing you even if I say I do not.
Heart and Mouth and Body is not thinking as one anymore.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
It is true.
No doubt.
When things changes it will never be the same.
I am not the same.
You are not the same.
So why bother?
Happiness is what I seek to give.
Sorrow is what I wanted to take.
Smiles is what I wanted to see.
Pleasure is what I wanted to give.
I failed.
Yet He is able to give it to you.
I am happy for you have found happiness and calmness in the tides of problems and troubles.
I am happy to see you smile.
I do not wish to see unhappiness.
I am what I am.
You are not what you think you are.
Be grateful and have more trust.
Do not look for things in front of you.
Look further and stop blaming things for your decisions.
A heart is wonderful thing.
A heart is special.
A heart is crucial.
A heart does not love without commitment.
A heart does not love without sacrifice.
With commitment and sacrifice.
We will be able to see our trueselves.
Labels: Holiday, Life, Problems, Update
How I Wished that i could just lie down and rest.
My mind has not been calm.
My heart has been troubled.
My body has been tired.
I wish i could lie down and get some rest.
I am worried that what i say and do will cause me to lose myself.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Update
Have you ever felt ignored?
Have you ever felt left out?
Have you ever felt out-casted?
I tell you very frankly.
No lies.
Straight from the heart.
I am feeling those feeling now.
I am sorry if I ever did anything bad to you.
But you do not have to do this.
Ignorance is leading me to my doom.
You have something that I previously owned.
And never once i regretted.
I hope I do not start now.
Yea. I am being sensitive again.
Labels: Problems, Update
Today was a busy day.
Slept at 3.30am.
Woke up at 7.30am
Went to market with mummy.
then came back help boil soup with the charcoal pit XD
I'll let the picture do the talking
It is awesome!
No MSG / salt added! SWEETT! =)
after helping I smelled like charcoal.
Then took a parang n trimmed the bushes at our garden.
Super pain the hand.
Then went out for lunch.
Super hot~
Then came back to get online and handout in the cyber world =)
Now waiting for dinner~
Wohooo tonight plans! =)
Place : Allson Klana
Reason : Japanese Restaurant~
Why : Because I came back! ahhaah
Gonna enjoy. =)
I think You got me wrong.
I think I am doing the wrong thing at the wrong time.
Do not let you hearts be troubled.
Remember your promises as there as easily broken. =)
Labels: Fun, Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Update
It is hard losing someone.
Especially someone whom you love , whom you like
or whom you have feelings for.
It is a miraculous thing for a person to feel the top of the world when there are with them.
It is a ridiculousness thing for a person to feel discarded when there are not with you,
Some may give reasons.
Some may not give reasons.
Reasons. Do we need them?
When we lose them, what will we be looking forward to?
Rest well, little one..
They say your first ones hurts you the most.
It really does.
I hope you do not feel what I felt.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
Well...
Today was a nice day.
Slept at 6am.
Woke up at 9am.
Went jusco.
Came Jack to clean house.
Went Jusco again
Then came back at 9pm!
Haha nearly whole day in Jusco
Yea..
Because it is J-Card day.
Much more better than Ipoh.
Not so crowded here. =)
Plus.. I made my sister bankrupt!
Rm1400++ in jus 1 day! wakakak XD
Mind your actions.
Mind you words.
But who am I to judge?
Labels: Fun, Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Update
Really hope that I am what I used to be.
Just want to be happy and laugh and being lame.
Popularity does not matter.
Does it?
What popularity brings?
Pride and Ego?
One cannot satisfy everybody.
I am sorry
I cannot satisfy yours.
I want to be happy.
You want to be happy.
We want to be happy.
Will we be able to achieve that?
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
Finished reading this book!
Awesome book.
Really touching.
Recommended!
Labels: Books, Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Update
Well.
After so many emo posts.
Guess it is time about myself huh?
Today saw IpMan2 and IronMan2!
Watched IpMan2 alone while IronMan2 was with buddies!
IpMan win over IronMan! lol
All the things ain't going that well.
Currently sick.
Condition : Flu, Fever, Ringworm-infected =(
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
It is never the same.
Never the same it is.
Never it is the same
The same never it is.
Never, Never, Never.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
I still have not find my path yet.
I still feel lost.
I need a compass.
I need directions.
HELP!
Today I just saw something that confirmed myself.
Thinking too much is what I did.
Stop thinking is what I cannot do.
Help is what I need.
Dissapointment is what I get.
I am still waiting on the couch.
Still hoping for a miracle.
Laugh my way out of misery.
Patiently waiting.
But I just remembered.
You left without me.
Bye.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
Don't even know what am I feeling anymore.
Scared.
I am really scared.
Yet I am still glad.
But, most importantly.
I am scared.
=(
I still hate you from my bottom for my consciousness.
Yea. Its you.
And your a guy.
Sulk up and scram.
Biggest actor I seen.
Wish you could continue to do what you do best
All the best =)
I <3 my mummy!
I <3 my daddy!
I <3 my sister!
I <3 my brother!
I <3 my mummies~!
I <3 my friends!
I
I
I am still useless.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
They say the time 11.11 it means someone is missing you.I trusted that before.
Guess I was naive, maybe?
Alls well, ends well....
I hope I am feeling the 'well' im talking bout.
Guess there is really no point holding on.
When a person wants to leg go,
No matter how many ppl hold on to him/her,
Its is just simply useless.
I really hope all the problems and sadness just poof-ed away
But this is life.
I have fallen for you.
Now I am walking away from you.
Hope I do not stumble again
Like I promised.
Will you keep your promise?
I hope so.
*the last post of You ♥ #xx
Its ends tonight.
My heart wants to say something.
But I don't think it will.
Wish us both the best.
♥ Your T-shirt.
♥ Nothing but Your T-shirt.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
Time really passes so fast.
I already lost one friend this year.
Damn it.
I lost another this morning.
Whats the meaning of life anyways?
Without reason and purpose.
Why is it worth it?
But we live on because we carry part of all our friends with us.
We don't live by our own will.
But we live on with our friend's will and support.
Life ain't a show for yourself.
Its a stage for everyone.
Poon Dik Wen
My bro..
Im gonna miss you..
I really hate you now...
You could have at least said goodbye rite?
Damn, I am really I fool...
Even if u said it.. I wouldn't accepted it.
Bye buddy!
Its time for you to take a rest.
♥ Your T-shirt.
♥ Nothing but Your T-shirt.
Labels: Friends, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
When your stressed with tons of problems and no solutions.
You will be stressly streched.
Rest means nothing to you.
Because sleep does not help you.
Stress is a awkard thing.
I hate it.
This week is just so stressful.
When I lay my head down.
Tried to think happy stuff.
BUT....
When my body rests.
I start to think about someone.
The times we had together.
But. Its not only that
I dreamt that you were no longer with me.
Your happy without someone.
Your happy with someone.
Drove away to avoid you seeing my sad face.
Met in an accident.
Audi, hope, life, happiness and dreamt washed away.
But when I'm finally awake after 12 hours of sleep.
Im still rooting for you.
Keep going no matter what.
I know you can!
♥ Your T-shirt.
♥ Nothing but Your T-shirt.
Labels: Holiday, Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
Sigh.
What a way to start a blog.
The past week has been awful.
So many unexpected things happened.
So many things got out-of-hand.
So many things woke up me from myself.
Happy-go-lucky is not the characteristic I am having right now.
Life is unfair.
Yeah. I know.
Sigh. Wish I could turn back time.
And solve all my problems.
And I would also like to say.
Appreciate what you have.
Cherish what you have.
Do not regret when it is gone if you don't appreciate it
Labels: Kepohness, Life, Problems, Update
Time will heal everything.
But if the hurt is deep,
time just helps with it,
it doesnt heal the pain,
The only one who can heal your pain is also one who did the pain to you.
Hold in there.
Be strong.
Be Yourself!
Hang in there
You are not alone =)
Labels: Kepohness, Life, Update
Thing can go from one end to another end.
Happiness to sadness.
Light to darkness.
Hero to zero.
I am just another spectator watching your show.
Do your best in everything you do.
Because I am watching at the sidewalk.
Today went to Jusco to do some shopping.
Buy buy buy buy.
Then i went to MPH.
Entered MPH then I remembered.
About You saying how nice the books which Mitch Albom wrote
Saw three books by him
I bought 2! hahaha.
Sudden impulse!
Its the fourth day today.
How are You doing?
I miss You.
