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Stress

2011-07-19T23:26:00.000-07:00

This whole week...

No.. Perhaps this whole month.

Subjected to alot of emotional and physical stress.

Studies is demanding alot from me.

Assignments are pilling because of my moodiness.

Grandma is in the hospital and still ICU.

Who can I run to?

Who can I cry to?

I expect myself to be stronger.

I expect myself to be tougher.

Haiz.

Really am in a bad mood.

Call it pms or whatever.

Gets irritated so easily these few days.

Gets angry at the slightest thing.

The world is demanding more than I can give.

Pray that I can still handle and cope.

Let me take a rest.

Please.

Broken

2011-02-06T05:50:00.000-08:00

Im smiling

Im fooling around

Im laughing.

But does anyone know Im broken and hurting on the inside?

Really hate being emo during this festive period.

No matter how hard I try

No matter how soft I try

It still comes back to haunt me.

Such a simple note could make me shed a tear.

Am I being naive or stupid?

Perhaps both.

Im here asking the same question over and over again.

Can I do this all over again with 100%?

I dont think so.

But I will try my best.

Lets pray and hope for the best.

Change

2011-01-31T08:16:00.000-08:00

Just because your standing still doesnt mean the world aint moving.

Do you believe in second chances?

Do you believe in miracles?

Do you believe what is destiny?

Give love a chance. And you may discover many many unseen things.

Lets just hope that I get it right after such a terrible terrible failure.

Your just digusting to watch.

Me

2011-01-25T00:53:00.000-08:00

Not all things are dead.

Not all worms are bad.

Not all flowers are poisonous.

Please understand my decision.

May I get it right this time.

Will You follow me?

Prayer

2010-12-14T08:10:00.000-08:00

Im not being the super goody goody little boy trying to spread religion in this post.

No matter what religion you believe in.

Or some cases. You dont believe in.

Prayer is always the strongest weapon or faith or believe in any religion

We pray when we are in need of help.

We pray when we are in trouble.

We pray when we are in despair.

We pray when we are happy.

We pray when we are sad.

And there are alot of reasons to pray.

You may disagree with me.

But its still MY blog and MY opinion.

Everytime you say a prayer.

Asking for divine intervention or gifts thats you cant afford.

Don't you feel relax?

In times of trouble and uncertainty.

Don't you feel assured?

How amazing is a prayer?

Try it yourself and you will know the anwser.

Dear Father,

Tonight is the 14th of December of 2010.

Its the day that my broadband limit was removed and restarted.

Thank you.

I would also like to pray for my family and relatives as well.

As we are in times of uncertainty about the economy.
I pray and hope that things will return normal and smiles could be restored.

I also pray for the well-being of all the ones on earth.

Be it people I know or don't know.

I pray that Father you will embrace those who are in pain, sorrow, sadness and in need of help

Grant them wisdom and the heart to solve their obstacles easily and smoothly.

I also pray for my friends that may achieve what they aim and trying to achieve.

Father I would also like to pray that my car can get fix as soon as possible as there are more and more problems to my beloved car.

But Father. In addition I would like to pray for a special few because I care about them

Victor,Mun Yee,Peikzhi,Melvin,Darren,Gareth,Elaine,Arry,Paco,Kelvin,Felicia

I pray that Father will grant them journey mercy as they travel back and forth from destination from destination.

And for Chee Ann,SiewHui,Josh,Eric,William,Joaquin.

That Father you will take care of them and watch over them so that they dont get into serious trouble.

And the last but not least Father.

I pray for You.

In You I place my faith and trust.

Amen.

Sometimes..

2010-12-10T08:53:00.000-08:00

Even tough guys pray when they are in trouble.

So Im putting my hands together as I pass this time of trials.

Life is just like a game.

Yet it is not to be treated as a game.

You play by aiming to win

You dont play by aiming that you MUST win.

Like my coach used to say.

Its just as simple as living your life.

You take the ball, you settle your breathing, take aim. relax and go.

Its just that easy.

But in life we also like to make things difficult.

We want to make patterns to be more cool,

We think by winning alone we will be popular,

We want to be famous,

And the worse of all is. You stop being yourself.

How does these add up?

You take the ball.

You think that you must STRIKE.

You think that people are watching.

You think by throwing harder or faster will help.

And to impress others you play a style that even your coach dont recognise.

Thats when you lose.

Even before your ball touches the lane.

How it makes sense now!!

If I listened to this advice long time ago.

I will surely be better.

But he also added.

When your ball leaves your hand.

There is nothing you can do except hope for the best.

Don't regret nor feel bad about the bad throw.

But make sure you don't repeat the same mistake on your next frame.

A mistake is made in a second.

But forever remembered.

I am currently finishing my current frame.

And I wish to start over.

I am willing to forget terrible things.

And im willing to forgive.

An open heart and an open mind is what you need.

I wish upon the bright moon.

That all the pieces will fall into place gracefully.

I wish to be friends.

But the final say is still up to you.

Secrets.

2010-11-22T23:50:00.000-08:00

A secret is amazing you know.

It bonds people together.

It helps a few individual feel closer to each other.

Brothers and sisters share this secret and uphold this secret only to those worthy of knowing.

A secret is also devastating to a relationship.

As more and more secrets are kept from one individual.

We tend to avoid that person and mark him/her as an outcast.

Often afraid that the person would ruin things.

Things are even worse when they used to share secrets.

Remember the times that we shared secret and laugh it out when the beans spilled?

Remember we poked each other to tell secrets?

Remember we tease each other?

Remember the time we shared?

Do you?

If you do then what are you doing now.

Im not saying you should tell me all your secret.

But mind you.

Don't whisper secrets in front of a person which you don't intend to tell.

How many things do I know?

Lets just say..

I know less than what you guys thought.

Do brothers and sisters treat each other like this?

Maybe I am wrong.

But just look back.

If I am wrong.

Tell me.

If your wrong.

Tell yourself.

If you don't

then there is pretty much nothing that can be done.

Duties.

2010-11-22T09:47:00.000-08:00

Sometimes when a given duty has priority over all other stuff.

Family always comes after God.

And then comes friends.

Its sad when you are flying aeroplanes to your friends.

I deeply apologize if I made any empty promises in the recent times.

There is just no doubt in me that family comes first.

Blame it on teaching or ethics.

Sure I am complaining about doing things sometimes.

But that doesnt change one fact.

That is. You still have to do it.

Thats why the phrase like

"DUTY ABOVE ALL"

"SERVICE TO MANKIND"

I may no be a doctor nor a nurse.

But when it comes to taking care of people.

I try to do my best.

Yea. I missed out alot of fun things.

But I am trying to balance a few things at once.

Current status of nicholas aw.

Family - Yes

Busy - Yes

Money -Broke

Love - None

Heart -No idea

Friends - No idea - sorry if i ffk-ed -

Car - Soon gonna go.

Happiness - 50:50

~~Lost in thoughts.~~

After so much seriousness on top.

Lets have some laugh okay.

If not funny then forgive me

All this bloopers are true!

1.Bought WRIGLEYS chewing gum (in a black box) and my auntie thought i bought condoms.

2.Thought my grandfather's boxer is my grandma's undergarment

3.Lost to a kancil in a stop-go race.

4.Went shopping when one girl call me korkor.. -mind you.. i think she's older-

5.Asked a cashier where is the "bags" section in manderin. She anwsered back in manderin. Making me ask yet again in English -.-

6. What I thought is a secret is not longer a secret.

7. I slipped on a banana skin. =.= they ARE slippery.. -.-

8. Did a wheelspin in an old benz and got shocked. Panic-ed because never expected it

9.Drove my grandma home. She said. "You usually drive like this? Ahgong drives faster..."

Trust is fragile.

Secrets are fragile too.

Mind you please?

Im sorry its all words. My internet connection is limited.

Will update WITH pictures soon okay? =)

Thoughts

2010-11-18T10:14:00.000-08:00

~~Its never easy to let go something which you cherish.~~

Time heals wounds.

But time doesnt help with pain.

As long as my heart and yours beats differently.

We shall continue to live happily with or without each others consent.

It is better if things stay the same way.

Things are falling apart gracefully.

Maybe someday we shall meet again and laugh at our silly mistakes.

I wish you have a smooth relationship with everyone that you care about.

Its not that of money.

Its not because of things.

It is also not because that your pretty/handsome.

It is because I care for you as a friend.

-dedicated to vdbb,lmy,lsh-

Wanderers

2010-11-16T17:13:00.000-08:00

Not all those who wander are lost

We just like to express ourselves differently.

But most of us are lost.

hmm

2010-11-14T21:47:00.000-08:00

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.

And this thing turned out so evil,

I don’t know why I’m still surprised.

Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.

But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind.

Means so much yet it does'nt mean anything.

Being stabbed in the back hurts.

Yet the one who can cure it is

the one who stabbed you.

Really?

2010-11-14T09:36:00.000-08:00

When will we know our trueself?

Is it by cheating and deceiving people to gain their wealth and pity?

Is it by playing and fooling around with peoples feelings?

Or is it that you use your 'attractiveness' to charm people?

You will only know your true self when you meet true friends who don't act like bastard/bitches.

Do you have good friends like that?

One is hard to find.

Two is near impossible to find.

Three is impossible to find.

And right here I have 3 wonderful friends.

Who are walking with me right now.

DO you have such friends?

Or do you have snakes and wolves on your back?

I loathe people who wears masks and pretends.

Still amazes me till today at how good you people are in it.

If I ever grow up to be successful.

Don't worry. I will surely nominate you people to the Oscar Awards.

Hmm

2010-11-14T07:10:00.000-08:00

This few weeks will be busy.

Very busy.

Have to take care of ahgong and take care of him + do things that he usually does.

Today is officially the day i took over.

Its super tiring.

When i work i feel like sleeping. Because I have to wake up early.

When i sleep i really dream about taking care of ahgong and wash dishes. Because that is the MAIN thing i do.

After ahgong's eye is okay.

then its my auntie's turn.

then ahgong again

then auntie's.

I will die if the list gets any longer.

Work work.

Salary?

Give you eat celery got la! hahaha

Sometimes things are not meant to be understood.

It is meant to be felt.

When the love for someone isn't fading or goes away.

It plays nasty tricks on you.

Sleep early .

Wake up early .

Work like kuli early .

Take care yea my friends.

I love every single one of you as much as my own family.

Thats right except for 2 fren la..

Because I heart them more! wakakak

Sims

2010-11-12T04:19:00.000-08:00

Yesss....

Today I fanally get to play sims3 already.. been dreaming it for 2 days jor..

Actually no la.. never play sims before..

so im super curious! haha

Wanna play!!

Its in my NEW external hard disk! =X wkakaka

so i need to bath nice nice only touch it..

Cant wait for it! =)

And hor.. If you want lend things to Victor Dang Bang Bin..

Dont!

He will spoil it geh! XD

Happy

2010-11-11T07:48:00.000-08:00

Since two of my best buddies complained saying this blog very emo.

Then I post some happy stuff la...

Yesh.. I am saying about you..

Victor Dang Bang Bin!

Lam Mun Yee!

But have to kinda agree with them la..

Because when I emo only got feel to blog! hhahaa

If you guys are reading this..

Mind using the chatbox? haha vry lonely la...

Ok la.. back to the topic.. no more advertisement! =)

It has been nearly 2 months if im not wrong since our(if you can relate) holiday started.

After semester 4 we got the 3 months break.

I was looking forward to it actually.

But now hor.. Nearly wan to fat mou edi.. Mushroom also start to grow on my head le.

The activities I mostly do now is...

1.Facebok

2. Sleep

3. Eat

4.Facebook.

Lifeless..

I want to work ah! No money le.

Yesterday I got rm325 from melvin.

Used 150 to buy external hard disk yesterday.

Used 50 bucks buy earphone today.

Left 125.

My gosh.. work till like cow but spend so fast. >.<

Really missed the classes and the fun times which I share with my classmates.

Cute boy!

LoL let you guess who more cute la! haha

Hmm.. perhaps the most epic picture I have in my lappy.

Haha I love this picture!

Not happy nor pleased.

2010-11-09T08:18:00.000-08:00

Have you ever cried for someone?

Have you ever cared for someone?

Have you ever think of someone and giggled?

Have you ever think of someone not because he or she is the opposite sex?

Have you ever treat your friends as buddies/brothers/sisters?

I have to admit.

With one hand I can account for all the friends that I had cried for.

I have cared for alot of person I hope.

I always think so stupid things and laugh like an idiot frequently.

Yes. I think of someone because I feel there is a connection between us.

Not just as in a boyfriend nor girlfriend.

Just best of friends.

And finally yes. I treat most of my friends as buddies/brothers/sisters.

Do they treat me back the same way?

Only they themselves and God knows.

This dreadful month I lost a sister.

Though I wasn't that close to her.

The pain of losing her is still hard to bear.

Life is so fragile right?

I mean one moment you could be laughing and giggling.

But the other moment. You could be leaving all your friends and relatives without saying goodbye.

Have you ever said "I love you" to your loved ones?

Love is very subjective.

It could be shown to parents, lovers, siblings, buddies and enemies alike.

This week. I send a message to my parents saying

"I love you mum/dad. Stay safe yea. God bless"

Both replied nearly the same way.

"Love you too son"

That feeling of assurance of someone who loves you as much as you love them is amazing.

I cannot describe it due to my lack of language skills.

Even if I try. The best word I can think of is ESTACY .

To those who care about someone.

Take a minute of your precious time and show your love to your loved ones.

No matter how simple it maybe.

You will never get bored of that feeling!

Girls sometimes over think stuffs.

Boys sometimes under think stuffs.

If you expect to find perfect partners. Either marry yourself or your mirror.

I miss you Chloe. =*(

You in your Vios.

and your ugly P

Your expressions to people.

Your friendliness to people.

I will never ever in my life forget your smile.
A smile which makes other people smile too.

A smile that I am working so hard to get.

I hope that you will watch over your friends and relatives.

Go in peace and rest assured.

~~Bye my love.~~

Amist this mourning period and being sad and emo-ish.

Who could have thought that you could creep into my mind.

Friendship doesn't end nor fade.

Its just the ignorance of man and women alike.

She's out of my league.

2010-10-31T13:06:00.000-07:00

First and foremost I would like to sincerely apologize for the long hiatus.

Haven't had the time nor gave the effort to keep this blog updated.

I am not going to give you some whacky reason.

But I am just going to be straight forward.

I was lazy and inspiration was really low to write anything.

It is now 1st of November. 3.19Am. A beautiful Monday *early* morning.

Was on my laptop watching movies that I downloaded.

There were many movies to choose from but in the end there was only 2 movies that caught my attention.

That was Green Zone and She's Out Of My League.

It was a clear choice which movie I wanted.

If it was under normal circumstances.

I would clearly and without doubt went for the action movie rather than the romantic/comedy movie.

But something in my heart.

*I aint making this up*

Said to me.. hey why don't give the romantic movie a try.

Its not like I was in romance or in love okay.

and Queenie is my imaginary girlfriend. =)

This movie is highly recommended in my personal opinion.

Its really a nice romantic / comedy movie.

This movie taught me 3 things.

1. Always be yourself.

How many times in your life you had become a different person just to impress someone?

Is life about getting praises and applause from people?

I don't know about YOU.

But to tell you the truth.

I have..

I act like a complete doofus. A total banana.

But its the real and the sincere you who really makes who you are!

Always remember that!

It is hard to follow other people.

but its easy to be yourself.

Go ahead. Choose your way. =)

2. Have confidence.

There are unarguable proof that life has its ups and down.

One moment your flying.

But the other could mean your on the ground or under the sea.

Life is like that.

Who ever said its gonna be easy?

But. Who also said its gonna be hard?

Its just your perspective and how you look at things.

Have that courage to do what you feel right and don't let negative things stop you.

Instead embrace your weaknesses and try to make yourself better.

If you don't try. There are 6,697,254,040 other people in the whole wide world who are waiting in line

3. Friends are important.

No doubt. Absolutely no doubt about the third lesson which I learned.

Who you befriends with is very very important.

Stay with the wrong friends and your condemn to life.

Stay with the right friends and your life will be fruitful even if your poor.

Its not the things that make you popular.

Its not the things that makes you famous.

It may not even be the things that you dreamt about.

Have you ever thought about how valuable your friends are?

Without their care and support and sometimes cold water splashing.

Do you think you will be here in your place today?

I cant give you an anwser.

But to me. I am 100% sure that I won't be the one writing this today

if it wasnt for my friends.

All the good things and bad things has made us closer indefinitely!

Think of the time and effort just to see your friends.

They are just doing like you.

But all it takes for a friendship to fail is a thought.

"Nah.. Maybe next time"

Cherish your loved ones before you lose them.

Its not the big things.

Its not the little things either.

But its all the little things which makes the big things.

Perhaps I have made this list before.

But. From the bottom of my heart.

There is not even a way to show my appreciation

My brothers and sisters.

Love them till I can't love them

*In no particular order*

Victor

Melvin

Darren

Gareth

Arul

Kam Mou

Alvin

Seng Man

Joseph

Kah Seng

Yew Chung

Ong Beng

Wesley

Rosheen

Joshua

Chu Jyh

Joaquin

Josh

Eric

Jlun

Felicia

Denise

Elaine

Munyee

Apek

Siewpao

Sotong

Chee Ann

Big head

Hui Xin

Dora

Jia Foong

Melissa

Theresa

There are still many more friends which I cannot list out at the moment.

But you know right that I care for you.

I will cry if I lost anyone of you.

Do you think I should continue to post personal confessions of my friends like the previous 4 friends?

Give me your opinion on my chatbox.

And once again. Thank you for reading my lazy blog =)

Hearts to you.

-Im just waiting to be discovered-

My current idols and stars =)

Friends *2

2010-10-01T12:16:00.000-07:00

Without my friends

I would be a crybaby.

A simple thank you is not enough.

So I thank you guys for being there for me when I needed it the most.

-and no... im not emo-ing!- lol!

Today was a busy day.

But due to my promise to you guys.

Im gonna move on with the list.

Please not that the order of friends is not relevant to your ranking in my life

all my friends has the same equal standing except a few person =P

Who do you think will be up next?

Who else besides my idol?

Yeah.. got influenced by Big Head.

Sei Big Head.

Melvin Aaron Navin

*Did I get it right?*

First impression.

- He is a bad person ( he's bald ) -1

- He damn geng ( his friends all chinese ) +1

- He has good english +1

- He is a babe magnet +5

- Rides a motorcycle ( last time I anti bike geh! ) -5

- Damn funny +1

- Has ear piercings +2

- Uses Digi +5

- A friend of a person +2

- Good handwriting +1

The first time I met Melvin was in Sem2 or Sem3.

Couldnt remember that well because that time I didnt know him that well.

The first time I met him is during Saki's Mass Communication Assignment.

That time he was the reporter asking question

I still remember he wore the Chinese type of shirt. Vry gaya one... ( sei lor... fly fly lor ppl..)

Then the second time I meet him is when he was the MC for the same subject.

He wore a vest and the thing I thought is..

Wah.. Mc gonna do catwalk.

Handsome dao.. If I girl I sure let me seduce gao gao ah...

He is very good in talking / mc-ing / crapping and bullyshyting.

When he starts talking then everyone automatically shut up and listens

Never got close to him until sem4

Sem4 is actually a bridge to many of my friends.

Him included!

Seeing him in sem4 actually makes me happy.

But in the same time I also felt sad.

He like cannot recognise me. Damn you gao gao -.-

Didnt cross my mind that I will be so close to him to be frank.

And I am saying this not because of chinese and indian crap.

I mean.. Looking at him..

You sense a sense of difference in level.

Not in a bad level.. Just that he is like...

ermm.. like when you play game..

People start with level 1 but he is like level 10 jo..

Lets summarise all the thing about Melvin.

Melvin is a great guy with a great personality.

Great command of language and great sense of humour.

But with me using the word 'great' its like underestimating him.

Yet, he can be describe in one word.

You know what?

I D O L

MC Botak ( the name given by me ) hahah! love it?

He has a really special gift of talking!

That is the reason he's doing PR..

No... not Polis Rempit...

There is only one thing I don't like about Melvin.

Truth be told...

He more lengzai than me... Dulan him...

Joking la... haha how can you not like Melvin? lol

Not in a gay way ok....

Another brother of mine... Which I cherish more than any other.

I do accept him as my brother. Does he? =X

If the post is about a guy.. then obviously need to have a girl right?

Know who will I pick to pair with Melvin?

Khor Wen Xian

Do you know who it is?

She is the one and only.... Big Head! ( If you don't believe you go see for yourself. ) watermelon also lose ah..

Lets try to recall...

I first met Big Head during sem2.

I still remember clearly..

That time I went to Web Page Design class...

Was super lonely because I just transfered course from Science.

Didnt know anybody in the class except the lecturer.. Swt -.-

Then he ask me to separate into assignment groups.

Being the shy and quiet person that I am.. I just sat there lor.

Then Pigu came over to ask me to join his group.

Seeing this as a good chance... but in the end its a curse from hell....

In the group was me, Pigu , Big Head, Evon and JiaPei.

First impression

- Bad girl (whole head dyed ) -5

- Anti boy geh. -5

- Conputer idiot. +5

- Chinese damn geng +2

- When ever I say something in manderin she sure laugh -999

- A sweet and polite girl because no foul language! +10

- May sound perverted..... But is top class lenglui... +10

*serious geh ok..*

Please don't fly...

Before I go deeper into her profile..

Let me make one surprising yet sad fact.

She is married to Chua Bin Lun.

So boys.. Back off!

Big Head is a very nice girl when you get to meet her.

She is outgoing and friendly and she is kind too!

If you need help then you ask her.

She will sure help geh... I hope. lol

I still remember when I group with her.

She really dumb dumb in computer but she did more than I expected during the presentation.

Clap Clap!

She also has a good sense of fashion.

Don't judge her looks in Kampar because all her nice clothes are in Penang!

If you see her make and wear pretty pretty ah..

Im sure you nose bleed ah...

*not because of pretty but bcasue the head damn big!*

hahah jkjk la... lol

I really envy her sometimes because she stays with her friends in the same house.

I wish to do so...

But I don't know if I have the chance to do it.

Sometimes I do put her in a bad position because she needs to balance her life between team GG and her own friends.

But she still manages to pull it off...

Big Head is also a great Mc!

Well.. she started off shaky but when she got into her zone...

Mc Botak please stay aside la! lol

Say all the good things not good hor..

Well... As much as I would like to praise her also need to zat her geh

If not her head become more big.

She has 0 skills in computer. How she can facebook and blog also amazes me.

Big Head has a bad attitude of not replying message.

I know la I not handsome.. Please reply la.. Gao gao you..

And she has driving skills of an old auntie which is still better than Kam Mou!

*I know I am a bad driver too*

The worst of all..........

She don't go club! lol

haha

I still remember what she say.

" I am sorry.. I am not ready yet.."

Haha but nevermind! We still love you! haha

Big Head is indeed a great friend to have if you are finding for friends.

She is one of my sisters which I am willing to protect any moment without hesitation.

Sisters for life!

Love Nicole...! =)

Well... Currently 4 persons is in the list... Whos next?

Give love a chance before you say no.

-Dedicated to Wesley Wong-

Friends *1

2010-09-30T09:41:00.000-07:00

Friends are like pictures captured.

Just that pictures don't talk nor move

Friends talk and move and still means a thousand words.

These few days really no inspiration to blog because nothing much ever happens when I am at home

So I will blog about things that are important to me.

First of is friends.

Lets see who makes it in my list alright? =)

Im gonna blog about two person first.

Victor Dang Bang Bin

The friends which I knew from semester 1 in UTAR

I change his name from Bang Bin to Pumping!

And now mostly people call him that too =)

You should say thank you!

He took the same course as me that is Foundation in Science

But too bad now I ter-jump to Arts.

Would like to congratulate him on passing Foundation!

He is one of the first friends which I knew.

First impression on him

- Lengzai... sure kenot fren him -1

- Damn rich but not lanci +1

- Drives a car +1

- Kinda shy at first but actually damn notty +1

- Damn hate him for a reason last time -1

- Nike brand lover +1

- Doesnt see status nor face +1

Get to know him and you will find a friend that you will never want to lose.

He drives a Myvi which is one of my dream car

And need I say.. he has awesome skills in driving.

but because of him also...

I never want to drive.

Semester 4 of Utar is only possible because this fella teman me.

If no ppl teman I sure wait till sem5 onli take!!

And btw.. He is from Cameron Highlands!

And he loves basketball also...

But I guess what ball also he like.. hehehe... lol

I am proud and lucky to have a friend like him because due to him. ( not diu ah -.- )

I am able to finish the assignments.

He bakar minyak sampai malam in McD with me leh!

Brother bo? haha

And he is the first person in Kampar I use Ke Ling Sou. ( indian calculation )

Ke - Linng - Souu!

And tell you all one secret about him.

He denies being gay.. but always miss me one.. lol

See who gay now? hahaha

He is the one of the brothers which I lay all my pride and arrogance down and have a nice talk

Let me assure you that what I said to you that night.

I mean it.

Brothers for life

No matter far or near.

Number 2 is...

Of course post about lengzai also need to post lenglui right?

Lam Mun Yee

Meet this beast during semester 4 of Utar.

She took Foundation in Science too. Just like Pumping.

The first girl which I heard the word that I thought not available to girls fly out.

Example is. GG, Gao gao, Fuck You, Damn You , etc

Many more actaully. but dont dare post more.

Later she gg me gao gao then give me 8-po kick

First impression on her

- Shy girl +1

- Pretty girl +1 ( wah... dont fly ah)

- Loner -1

- Act like boy ( more boy than me =.= ) -99

- Friends with Melvin and Big head +1

- Able to talk cantonese (yes. im racist) +5

*seriously i thought she banana*

*not that she has a banana.. ahh nvm nvm*

This monster is from Ipoh!

Wohoo.. the best place on earth!

She drives too many cars until I dun rmb what car she drives.

Perhaps the white horse and black stallion?

Respect her one thing that is she drives Manual.

( after she read hor.. confirm fly ah )

Don't remember when I got close to her.

But as a friend she scores high on my list.

And I remember her the most on the day I pissed her off..

Tips for you guys..

If you dont want to kena burn in your bumbum.

Please dont make her dulan you..

Trust me.. Damn scary -.-

Scary till indian buggers also lose ah! =D wakakak...

And credits to her because she taught me how to use the word GG and gao gao!

Another fact to know about her is...

She knows tak- kwan-do-ah

So prepare to get a few kicks.

Protect the JEWELS! =D

lol....

One my sisters which I cherish as much as my brothers.

One sister which can also qualify to be my brothers.

Next time I marry my wife

I sure ask you become my "hengdai'

All the best in your future undertakings.

May you be happy in all your decision because if not we gg you till you become happy ah!

and you dont bully my Pumping ah..

If not I ask kam mou 'fangpi' let you die ah!

Clap clap. Post one end. More to come! =)

Mental burnout

2010-09-29T13:39:00.000-07:00

Its 4.35am.

Been staring at the lappy for 8 hours straight.

Router has been ON-ed for 120 hours

Lappy has been On for roughly 115 hours

Super hungry now. FEED ME! =(

Really tired.

The only good thing is...

Able to play GRID! =D

Just now nearly lost my hose because of daddy.

Daddy forgot to off the fire when he boil medicine.

Came back home got 'hangus' smell.. go close fire

then open the pot... walao.. indian also lose ah! =P jkjk

super black and the medicine thing was on fire -.-

Very fortunate that we never go gai gai if not who knows what could have happened.

Lazy

2010-09-27T07:38:00.000-07:00

Seriously this month I am really really lazy to update blog.

I have no idea why.

Maybe at home people will automatically become lazy?

In my house its quite nice!

Everytime I go into bed I never want to get up.

Everytime I sit infront of the computer, I never wanna get up.

Everytime I eat , I add rice. Fat ah -.-

But then here in my hometown.

I don't have alot of buddies around.

How I wish things were better.

Work = Money

Money = Happy

Happy = Good

Good = Sleep

Sleep=Work!

When can I see them again?

Update

2010-09-23T08:58:00.000-07:00

It has been so long since my last update.

It has been a busy week / month for me!

So many things to blog but yet so little place!

Actually I am just lazy! =P

So.. Lets get back to the topic!

We shall pick up from 11/9!

11/9 - 15/9

Went to work under ASTRO with beloved friends in Kelantan

First impression of Kelantan after 1 hour in Kelantan

It is an Islamic state.

It is a dog-less state

It is a mouse infested state

It is super scary to walk at night

It has alot of 7-elevens and BATAs

It has also alot of budget hotels...

Wonder whats so nice in Kelantan until need so many hotels.

Work was fun under the sun.

I know what BBQ chicken feels already! hhaha

BBQ-ed!

After a tired day of work. SLEEP!

And our ever lengzai pumping!

His secret to his Godlike skill in driving is...

Sleep in this pose! XD

Salary time and off work.

Tired but feels very satisfied!

Look at my arm for the prove that i worked! haha

After work then got plenty of rest.

I can tell you one thing after work that is.

Once you work like a cow then you would probably will forget your own birthday!

Haha.. FYI

My birthday was on 19th!

I still accept wishes and presents! hahah

So we stayed over at GARETH's place on 17th and 18th

Thanks Gareth for letting us crash there! =) =) =)

GARETH HO's HOUSE! =D

So while we were staying over there..

The GG gang actually planned a surprise party for me.

Haha really didnt expect it because in my life i had only 2 party before..

Sad huh.. haha anyways. i'll let the pic do the talking ok? =)

Everyone super happy! lol.. i wonder why

because she super notty!

Weather too hot =P

Begging for towel.. =(

Got towel and present!

Present from the GG team and my sis

I smell bad meh.. both also buy perfume!! lol

Thank you Victor, Melvin, Darren, Gareth, Apek,MunYee,Siewpao,Sotong,Big head,Chee Ann!!

Thank you soosoooo soooo much!!

Hearts you guys! =) =) =)

Then I got this present from Felicia , Josh, Melvin , Alex, Denise and Eric!!

Omg i was like WTF when i saw this!

HID yo!!!

But sadly today i went to fix it.. the bulb tak ngam.. sad gao gao!

but im still happy guys! thanks lot weh! =) =)

then we celebrated LAM MUN YEE's birthday!

Tmr only update. super tired jor! =)

My current list of brothers and sisters!

❤

Victor DBB

Melvin

Darren

Gareth

Arul

Kam Mou

Alvin

Joaquin

Elaine

Munyee

Apek

Siewpao

Sotong

Chee Ann

Big head

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be. ~Douglas Pagels

mlm

Most hated person right now

~~Victor - not DBB~~

~~Person L~~

~~Person K~~

They deserve no colour in my blog.

~~Bastards.~~

We love without reason, and without reason we hate.

Jean-francois Regnard

Food

2010-09-10T19:31:00.000-07:00

Ahh... I just love good food.

Today I woke up and told my parents that I will be leaving at 1pm

*excluded the info that im going for lunch*

Then they told me actually today supposed to have lunch at some fancy restaurant.

Ah... My food just ran away from me..

Pity pity.. =( =( =(

Hope and pray for another time? Please? =)

Going down to Kota Bharu soon...

Hope its all fun..

But i think it will bcuz Melvin , Pumping, Desmond and another two of Melvin's friends.

Superb!!

Thinking of sitting in my dream car itself is enough!!

Sweet..

Thanks melvin.. but i nvr emo ok.. I just dont feel like being happy.

and btw melvin.. whats the good news? tell me...

❤ Victor Dang Bang Bin.. haha

Baby

2010-09-10T07:03:00.000-07:00

My dear car...

I know sometimes I may mistreat you.

I know sometimes I may roughen you up alittle.

I know sometimes I work you like a cow.

But deep down you still have to know I ❤ You.

You still have to remember you bully me also! =P

My car is slowly falling apart.

Stay strong.. Stay strong.

Soar and be like this...

End

2010-09-09T09:48:00.000-07:00

With sem 4 ending.

It means the 3 months break has started.

For some certain reasons

I dont want this holiday to start.

Because then our ways will be separated.

But i seriously hope.. and i believe our friendship will still strong.

Packing my things to move out of 1188.

Finally.

Dump so many things.

Room is so messy right now.

So many things to throw.

Some things are easy to throw.

Some things are hard to throw.

And some things are just impossible to throw.

Rubbish. Leave Kampar...

Dream

2010-09-08T15:24:00.000-07:00

How does it feel to dream about something?

How does it feel to dream about something that you like?

How does it feel like to dream about something that you hate?

How does it feel like to dream about something that you like but you cant have?

How does it feel to lose someone that is right infront of you?

How does it feel to be not able to grasp the thing that you want?

How?

The anwser?

Nicholas Aw doesnt know the answer.

You just have to find it out yourself.

Update

2010-09-08T11:55:00.000-07:00

Since everyone updated their blog except for kam mou's.

So I will update mine also.

Although I got nothing to update...

And btw.. thanks for crediting me for asking you all to update.

Next time I ask you all update again =)

Included all your links in my blog.
I want to change my blog template.

Getting boring already.

I don't wish our moments as friends to end..

My love

2010-09-05T13:18:00.000-07:00

Its 4.08 in the morning.

And I am studying for my accounts.

I hate accounts. I hate it as much as I hate people who doesnt appreciate friendship.

As I am accompanied by music.

*courtesy of Lam Mun Yee*

and I drank tins of RED BULL.

Don't feel sleepy at all.

As I am doing accounts.

Hearing this song.

I really shouldnt think so much.

I have so many buddies in front of me.

And from now.

I would like to open a place for them in my heart.

And this place that I am about to open is gonna be sealed inside my heart forever.

I can guarantee you guys that I will not forget you all

You all will attend my wedding.

You all will attend my childrens birthday party.

And all my celebrations and all the reason for me to be proud.
I just don't want to see you guys only at one time

That is my funeral.

I promise I will not leave you guys.

Even with death.

That is my promise to you guys.

Heart for heart.

And I give my heart to you guys. =)

I have found the persons to share my cheeseburger with.

Every beat of my heart beats for you guys right now.

Thanks =)

❤❤❤❤❤

Victor

Elaine

Mun Yee

Kam Mou

Wen Xian

Melvin

Chee Ann

Apek

Joaquin

Arul

Darren

❤❤❤❤❤

And btw.. im not emo-ing.. im just tired from accounts..

Im not lieing about this..

LoL.

I dare to admit if i emo okay!! =)

Hmm

2010-09-04T06:30:00.000-07:00

There has been alot of rasicm going around lately.

Alot of people has been throwing fire stones to each other.

As more and more people get into this fight.

Please think of one thing first.

Why are we fighting?

We are all humans on the inside.

Doesnt matter if we are Malay, Chinese, Indian or others..

Doesnt that being in a certain race means your better?

Really sick of this.

53 years.

53 years shouting MERDEKA.

How far have we come?

How far will we go?

We are yet to fully grown up.

Let us grow in a way which we respect each others as humans

and more importanly.

Respect each other as.

M A L A Y S I A N.

Exams

2010-09-04T02:25:00.000-07:00

Arhh....

Soon Im gonna be bald because of this stress. =( =( =*(

Exams this sememster are freakinglish hard.

Public Speaking - Mildly GG

Moral - Superly GG

Maths - No hope .. GG!

Pengajian Malaysia - hope dont GG

Accounting - Before i take this exam.. i also know GG edi...

Aiyoyoyo... T.T

Kawan kawan I semua.. Ada baik tak? Jangan emo atau dulan edi.. tak baik untuk kesihatan =D

Charmaine! i hate you!

mood

2010-09-02T08:40:00.000-07:00

Mood swings.

.Hates it.

It makes people unhappy, uncomfortable and it makes people worry.

I am having one right now.

SHIT!

Sorry if I offended any people.

My deepest apology.

A million words

2010-09-02T02:38:00.000-07:00

Pictures says it all..

Dedicated to some people out there.

Hearts.

Rest

2010-09-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

After a good nights rest.

I made up my mind.

I will not leave my current university.

Fuu.. university. Sounds cool eh?

If I really left then i will have no myvis to sit around anymore

No big bike..

ish...

Dont want that to happen! =D

Streched.

2010-09-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

Today was my first day of exam in sem 4.

The subject was Public Speaking

I would kill myself if I had the chance.

The last part I could not even do.

All i could do was bullshyt and try to think of some convincing points.

30 marks gone just like that.

Just because I overlooked one topic.

And after finishing this exam.

Felt stressed up because of my own overconfidence.

Because of this feeling.

I was streched to my limit.

As im writing now.

Im partly asleep.

Slept for 2 hours.

Then continue studying...

Guess this routine will last till I finish my exam that is on 7th.

I wish I can tough it out that long.

Its so stressful being in an exam.

Who the heck made exam huh?

Butt itchy?

But in this exam, I also realised that ..

my overconfidence sometimes really is the major weakness.

If i have no confidence, i Have none at all

If i have confidence, I have too much.

Bullock. But this has never gotten me far

On my limits.

Trying to exceed it.

Can I?

I am seriously doubting myself.

4 subjects to go.

Till I say bye bye.

Damn hate this bye bye..

Should I shift to INTI? haiz...

Can I get the instruction manual on life NOW?

If you see this. Please don't ask.
I just don't wanna talk about it.

Funny

2010-08-31T00:49:00.000-07:00

WONG CHEE ANN!

LALA GIRL!

VOODOO GIRL!

Said this funny thing when she high or drunk i think

Eh... That night I damn scared lor. Drive alone sumore.

Lucky I take old road and not highway.

If anything happen also dunoe how.

LOL... her kesimpulan is.... Highway is more dangerous than old road...

Anyone wanna agree with her?

studies

2010-08-29T01:37:00.000-07:00

A few more days then it will be our finals.

Time really flies.

Although this semester was supposed to be a long sem.

It sure felt shorter than any short sem.

Damn.. Im getting nervous about the exam.

Im getting hesitant to move forward.

Im worried that I will lose my close friends. (not to death that is)

Really really in a daze.

How could such a simple thing turn into such a mess?

There is something to look forward to after the exam.

But what if I can't make it?

Stressing myself to make a decision which I don't want to make.

Once again to lammy.

Don't stress yourself out too much.

There are both pros and cons to your choices.

Both choice also has its hidden agenda.

No matter what you choose.

We will still support you geh.

Like I said. Life has no right or wrongs.

Life has only right or left.

Right and wrong are derived from humans!

Listen to yourself.

Just gotta listen to that little fella talking inside.

❤❤❤❤❤

My love. My life. An never ending journey

2010-08-26T20:29:00.000-07:00

My love. My life. An never ending journey

Since GG Lam, Big Head, Melvin, and Bang Bin did things thats so touching.

I am gonna try to touch them back.

Lets start in the beginning of semester 4

The first day of semester was the worst.

I have to take 5 subjects this sememster.

Public speaking

Maths

Accounting

Malaysia Studies

Moral

I was thinking to myself.

Come on. Get it over with.

Your friends are already in degree.

Your friends are already leaving you behind.

I was ashamed of myself for having sem 4.

I was ashamed and worried that I would'nt get my degree.

But in a blink of an eye.

Its the 13th week.

Today was the last class for me.

All the classes has ended.

In one day, I experienced happiness and sadness.

A mixture of feelings which cant be described.

The most memorable class I had

No... Make it the most memorable and fun class I EVER had is

unexpectedly Moral and Pengajian Am

Being the 2 LAN subject.

I thought to myself.

Im screwed.. Both in BM

But then, as time pass by

I found something in the two class which I have never thought of finding in such a class

I found special friends.

I found Team GG!

I really really want time to freeze now.

its 6.12am of 27 / 8 / 2010

I just finish emo-ing.

And I realised how stupid I was.

Here in my face

Right under my nose.

There are people who care, love and accept me for who I am.

Why should I be sad when I lose 1 person but gained true friends.

These persons showed me what true friends are.

"All for one and one for all"

I am gonna name them one by one because they deserved it.

They are a part of me indefinitely.

The machos!

First off is my good buddy and my hou heng dai

Prince Myvi - Victor Dang Bang Bin

This handsome is the buddy which I met from Sem one where I was still in Sem one.

I missed him dearly in sem 2 and 3.

But how would I know I would meet him in sem 4?

Is this called Destiny or Fate?

He is really a gentleman.

A true friend which took care of me when Im down and drove me around in his white little Myvi

He's a little shy at first. But when you get to know him.

He naughty until explode!

Of course. since im so shy n quiet... he win me la!

Handsome sumore! >.<

Soyabean of team GG

One of the founder in team GG

Second is...

Melvin Aaron Navin - Biker/Rider - Mc Botak

Meet Melvin.

*secret*

I wanna learn his talking skills!

Melvin is a very talented and very very persuasive person

He is great no matter what he speaks.

He tipu you but you wont know one!

The first motorbike I sat was HIS!

The red Kawasaki.

Rode kinda fast. >.< kenot tell here.. later polis come.

Feel the shock!

Later kena heart attack. ish ish.

And he is also the only black bean in the founders of team GG. >.<

Third off is.... do do do do do do

Darren Francis Xavier

Darren is another biker I knew from Melvin.

Aint from Utar but that doesnt mean he isnt one of my brother!

Brother! =)

He is just a sweet guy.

Maybe because he works in pizza hut huh...

Get free pizza from him! wakakak

I first met him at TOS. Do you still rmb? haha

Would think that we would grow so close.

The other banana on team GG.

Soyabean!

The fourth but not the least!

Cheen Yong Tan - Kam Mou - Pak Chin Ko

A funny dude. who like to blow water until it rains.

But its okay! we like to see you blow! hahaha

but most of the time we kenot whether he is blowing anot.

A not-so english person which makes me hard to communicate with him sometimes.. hahah no offence ah!

A good friend and great buddy to have on anybodys side.

Met him through Big head at Bon Dodori ah?

The noisiest guy in team GG.

Keep it up. We need your lame-ness! =) =) =)

Soyabean~

The Senoritas.

Lam Mun Yee - GG Lam - Lam God

GG Lam is the first girl whom when she open her mouth sure got the word GG ang GAO GAO

But it sounds super interesting!

Now unknowly hor.. i copied her! wakakaka...

now she change to pad/pet/pat.. wadever la! hahaha

A very active girl which likes to change ppl and slap people.

But now due to WONG CHEE ANN. she start to pinch people.

PLease do not follow her.. PAIN LA...!!!

She keeps saying she misses us.

hahah who doesnt huh? wakaka

You ah! Don't worry about the future first! when the problem comes only tackle it!

Chill!!!

But no matter what you do.

Support you weh!!

Soyabean!

One of the founder of team GG

Next is...

Khor Wen Xian - Big Head

Probably the biggest head I ever met in my entire life.

AHaa joking la.

This big head is quite good la... also very bad..

Head big hor and like to block road d...

She is a fun girl to hang around.

Speaks manderin with me.

Duck and chicken speak also more clear than i speak with her!

ish ish...

She super geng in maths d...

Thanks to her only i can get so high marks in maths..

And.. she got a face like tissue paper... *pinch pinch*

And her laosai laogong is pigu!

but she say she willing leave him for me wor! lol PIII... pet la you! wakakak

you wan i also dun wan ah! wakakak

sorry ah if i frightened your housemates.. >.<

Soyabean!

One of the founder of team GG

Lastly is...

Wong Chee Ann - LaLa Clubbing Girl - Ish girl

See this picture my bulu chicken also come out edi..

scary like hell...

If you look long enuf you can see

''i wanna go club'' in her eyes!

She whacks and slaps people SUPER DUPER HARD

IF you wanna make her angry or tease her make sure you wear your jacket!

I think if she box you hor.. you confirm fly to africa!

Knew her from public speaking class... the lala girl!

but once you get to know her. she aint that bad! haha

she drives a myvi but she nvr lets me touches it.. sad gao gao!

Soyabean!

One of the founder of team GG

Also not included because due to my sleepiness.

Leovine , William , Elaine, Joaquin, Wendy, Chee Ki!

What?

2010-08-26T13:51:00.000-07:00

It has been 119 days since it happened.

That thing which left me in a daze.

Left me in the dark.

Left me hanging by myself.

Eight months of being together.

And that together just came apart.

Never thought that I would have the courage nor effort to write this.

How have you been doing?

I hope your in the pink of health.

'If it is yours, then let it go, if it comes back then its yours, if it does'nt then it was never meant to be'

It is the most memorable thing you ever said to me.

Guess it was never meant to be?

Or did you even try?

You tell me we are still friends.

You told me we will be like best friends.

You told me that I could still find you.

You told me we could still be close.

And you made me promise to forget about you.

And I dumbly agreed while holding back my tears in which I failed.

August 25 will be the date I remember.

It is your birthday.

I couldn't even lift my voice nor my fingers to give you a wish.

All because of one sentence.

But nevertheless.

I can't change things which already happen.

Guess you probably adapting well.

If you think that I the one who is not talking and doing all the ignoring.

Then I deeply apologize.

I have no defence on behalf of myself.

You tell yourself listen to your heart.

Because the heart doesn't lie.

Did you listen to it?

Or did you just ignored it?

I wish you wouldn't end up with a jerk like me in your future relationship.

I fully wish that you will still laugh and have fun

Laugh, eat, dance or whatever that makes you happy.

Thank You for being my first.

And thank You for being ever so forgiving.

The only regret I have when I am with you

Is not telling how much...

It doesn't matter anymore.

Goodbye.

As always I am still one step behind.

I hope with the help of everyone.

I can get over this obstacle.

Thank You once again.

And sorry.

Hearts

2010-08-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

Team GG is the first team that I met in UTAR

Team GG is also the team which I got my first ever FULL mark.

Team GG is also the first team to go to Cameron with me driving!

Team GG is also the team which we made so much noise until auntie also mlm us.

Team GG is also the team which I meet friends which I never met before.

Team GG consists of 30 people. (less i think)

Team GG isnt a rasict group!

We got black bean and soya bean also!

Team GG is also the team which watches each others back.

Im glad Im part of this team.

If we continue this attitude.

I think we will be called Family GG...

Thanks guys for being there with me in times of uncertainty.

Pumping

Don't worry. Its not your fault!

Lose phone only ma..

CAn buy new phone.. dun worry.

Maybe my old phone still wans me leh?

Dun worry! haha dun emo ah!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Wen Xian

Thanks alot ah..

But i nvr emo lor.. simply say!

later i no reputation ah..

but really thanks to you big head lor!

indeed a big head friend! GOOD FREN! haha

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Melvin, Mun Yee, Jake, Kam Mou

thanks alot!

you guys are the best..

nxt time when i rich i keluar porsche for you all =) =)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

YOU

Today is the 24/8

Tomorrow is your birthday.

Wish you happy birthday

May your wish come true in any way possible.

All the best in your future undertaking.

Stupid

2010-08-24T03:45:00.000-07:00

I have to hand it to you

I am really stupid sometimes.

The things I do and say are when worse than stupid.

No wonder I incomparable to my brother and sister.

Looking back now.

There are not one , not two, but many steps ahead of me.

No matter in what I do.

Im still behind them.

Fucking useless.....

Enough said...

~~FUCKING USELESS~~