It has been 119 days since it happened.
That thing which left me in a daze.
Left me in the dark.
Left me hanging by myself.
Eight months of being together.
And that together just came apart.
Never thought that I would have the courage nor effort to write this.
How have you been doing?
I hope your in the pink of health.
'If it is yours, then let it go, if it comes back then its yours, if it does'nt then it was never meant to be'
It is the most memorable thing you ever said to me.
Guess it was never meant to be?
Or did you even try?
You tell me we are still friends.
You told me we will be like best friends.
You told me that I could still find you.
You told me we could still be close.
And you made me promise to forget about you.
And I dumbly agreed while holding back my tears in which I failed.
August 25 will be the date I remember.
It is your birthday.
I couldn't even lift my voice nor my fingers to give you a wish.
All because of one sentence.
But nevertheless.
I can't change things which already happen.
Guess you probably adapting well.
If you think that I the one who is not talking and doing all the ignoring.
Then I deeply apologize.
I have no defence on behalf of myself.
You tell yourself listen to your heart.
Because the heart doesn't lie.
Did you listen to it?
Or did you just ignored it?
I wish you wouldn't end up with a jerk like me in your future relationship.
I fully wish that you will still laugh and have fun
Laugh, eat, dance or whatever that makes you happy.
Thank You for being my first.
And thank You for being ever so forgiving.
The only regret I have when I am with you
Is not telling how much...
It doesn't matter anymore.
Goodbye.
As always I am still one step behind.
I hope with the help of everyone.
I can get over this obstacle.
Thank You once again.
And sorry.
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